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Day 2 of September '09 fic-a-day! (personal challenge)
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By Clarity Scifiroots

Fandom: Harper’s Island (no real pairing) Disclaimers apply.

500 words           Rating: All

Spoilers? Well, it’s after the show but with no specifics.

Summary: inspired by smallfandomflsh challenge #24: amnesia

Day 2 of September ’09 fic-a-day

Proofed Sept. 3, 2009

 

 

 

Jimmy had adamantly argued against volunteering for the experimental drug treatment. Admittedly the information provided to the public is shaky, the list of potential side effects is extremely long, and the compensation offered is suspiciously high.

Abby doesn’t care about any of this. She lets Jimmy think he’s won the argument and persuaded her that his mantra of “Things will get better” is true. She suffers quietly through the next couple weeks thanks to an upped dosage of anti-depressants and a trusted routine that lends an appearance of calm.

Jimmy doesn’t tend to work late or spend much time away from the duplex and Abby. If he is away for a time, the upstairs couple agrees to coax Abby into a visit and maybe a little dinner. Even with the agreed-upon check-in, Abby has over an hour gap between Jimmy’s usual arrival and the unwanted visitors.

Weeks after their first argument about the treatment, Jimmy has a long day. Abby says goodbye and lets him kiss her cheek, as is their routine. She watches out the window as he gets into the pick-up and drives away. Today instead of putting away her breakfast leftovers, she turns to the table holding the phone, bills, and a notepad. She writes in concise block print her intentions, an apology for keeping him from moving forward with his life, and the number of a cell phone she’s bought.

Two hours after Jimmy drove away, Abby calls for a cab to meet her at the end of the block. She picks up her backpack, filled with a few changes of clothes, the new cell and charger, sealed letters she wrote to herself, and her medication.

When she leaves, she locks the door and tucks the key into the mailbox. She walks to the cab calmly with no need or desire to look back. She gives the cabbie the address for her salvation and sits back.

The scientist who meets Abby at the makeshift clinic will explain that “amnesia pill” is too simplistic a term. He will start to go into scientific detail about the drug’s process while Abby is supposed to look over the agreement forms. She will glance through them, barely reading as she searches for the many lines she must sign. When she finishes within a matter of minutes, the scientist will stumble to a halt and stare in surprise at the paperwork neatly stacked before him. Abby knows that when he looks, he will see a dead stare in her haunted face. He will hurry things along, wanting to escape the stare and the ghosts behind it trying to escape.

When she closes her eyes it will be the last time she has to think of the name Wakefield. The screams will stop. Blood will no longer stain her hands. She will be lost and confused, but she hopes her letter will convince the renewed Abby that it is better to forget.

She wishes she could erase herself before it all happened.


 

 
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katrinbisiani
Oct. 12th, 2009 03:53 pm (UTC)
That's heartbreaking.

Abby being unable to cope and Jimmy trying to cope and to support her and them staying together without separating for a prolonged time, it all makes me feel for them and for their need for each other who doesn't deny they love each other but seems almost a natural consequence of the ordeal they've been trough.

And I understand Abby need to forget but I can't help but feel for Jimmy and the grief and pain he's going to go trough when he gets home and she isn't there and all she left him is that notepad of explanation.

A really nice ficlet, you have my plause.
enmuse
Oct. 12th, 2009 04:49 pm (UTC)
Thank you for the long comment!

I know the consequences would just about kill Jimmy, but at the same time I think the situation is pretty desperate. Everything was so ridiculously fucked up that it's hard to conceptualize how any of the survivors are able to continue on. o_0;;

Off to read your comment on the other HI piece!
contron13542
Dec. 18th, 2011 07:31 am (UTC)
I'm the reader authors hate because I can never come up with a coherent comment so I usually just stay silent after reading fics. But I loved this. A lot. It's been a while since I've seen HI (btw nowhere near enough fans of that show on the internet) but your fic brought me right back and I feel like I just watched the show with the sense of depression, something that they could never get over.

Sorry for the rambly comment; it's 2:30AM I just wanted to say excellent job!
enmuse
Dec. 18th, 2011 07:53 am (UTC)
Well I feel honored that you replied, then! :D And this is interesting timing since I almost started a rewatch tonight (but stopped because I want to have the proper time set aside to have my roommate watch it)

I do love HI. (But I love Henry and it makes me soooooo sad he was the culprit *weep*) It's also amusing to me, after getting into Supernatural, that 16 SPN-related folks are in the HI cast!
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